OK, so that’s kind of a weird play on words, but it’s late, I’m tired and it’s been a long ass day!
Today’s assignment is to write about a difference we want to make in the world.
Every year for the past couple of years, I’ve attended the World Domination Summit in Portland. I’ve had an idea for something I wanted to do to help the world, but it has never been more than a fleeting idea. The problem with WDS folks is they want to know more about your idea, and what you’re doing to achieve it.
I’m working a full-time job, a part-time job, raising five kids and trying to keep my marriage on track… Finding time to flush ideas out is tough.
But with the help of friends, I’m starting to flush out my idea.
My idea is to build a platform that helps people establish their own platform. Specifically, I’d like to target black woman. The idea is for it to be entirely non-profit, so I don’t gain anything by establishing this platform and that it functions as a tool to enable, empower and connect black women with each other and resources which can help them.
I was listening to a podcast earlier this week, and reference was made to Toltec teachings. If you’re interested in the Toltec Culture, you can probably start here.
The Mrs and I started listening to The Five Levels of Attachment: Toltec Wisdom for the Modern World. The author begins by talking about perfection. Perfection is not a destination, but rather, it’s your current state. Whatever you are right now, you’re the product of your choices and experiences, and you are perfectly you.
He talked about looking in the mirror and seeing yourself for who you are, not who you could become. He talking about loving yourself as you are. As a perfect person.
With that in mind, the Mrs and I went to The Float Shoppe in Portland this morning and spent 90 minutes floating alone in a sensory deprivation chamber. I’ve had good experiences in the past, but today was the best by far. I’ve always liked who I am, but I thought this morning about connecting with myself. About loving myself unconditionally.
Love is a powerful emotion and realizing that you love yourself is the most powerful form of love. Being 100% in love with someone, and knowing that the person in love with you is 100% genuine and never going to abandon you, hurt you or let you down is incredible.
I’m a decent software engineer and when a task is done I feel a lot of satisfaction.
I’m OK at endurance racing, and when I cross the finish line, I feel a sense of achievement.
I’m fairly good at problem-solving, and when that problem gets implemented I feel a certain amount of pride.
But, when I can work with someone, enable that person and watching them realize a sense of empowerment and opportunity…
So part of the motivation for writing again is a challenge with a group I’m a member of.
Live Your Legend
I’m supposed to start off the challenge by writing a little bit about where I come from and why I’m here. But that’s what I’ve been doing. Rehashing the past, complaining about organizations and relatives from my past.
It’s time for something new.
Here’s what I’m excited about now:
Becoming the best man I can be.
Supporting my wife in her quest to be the best woman she can be.
Forming a better and more equal relationship with her as we both follow our paths.
Continuing to raise socially conscious children who will change the world for the better.
A lot has changed in the past couple of years. A lot inside of me, a lot outside of me, and a lot in my environment.
I’ve been thinking about writing again, but it’s a bit like my diet. Once you start, you know you have to keep up with it. Otherwise, next thing you know there are only a half dozen donuts left in the box, and you went for “The Kicker” down at Dutch Bros and your body is freaking out between a sugar crash and caffeine overload… And OH MY GOD WHO LEFT ALL THE LIGHTS ON, AND WHY IS MY FANCY SHIRT LYING ON THE KITCHEN FLOOR SOAKING UP A PUDDLE OF MILK!!!
Long story short. Life is hectic, life is good, and parts of it suck. But I need to start writing again 🙂
I used to blog about the Mormon Church. It was easy because it was very black and white. While most Mormons are good people, the organization itself is an evil and controlling mega corporation. Being an atheist and criticising them was easy. Even when I encountered resistance, it was still easy.
I’ve been trying to stay out of politics this season. I was an ardent Bernie Sanders fan, and then when he got defeated, I figured Hillary was the next logical choice. I still think that of the current options, she is the best candidate, but I’m not stoked about it, and I’m feeling embarrassed to about it too.
It’s nothing to do with her gender, nor the emails, nor Benghazi. On social issues, I think she’s kind of inline with what I’d like to see.
Someone brought up her husband today… but he’s not running for office. But then they brought up how she stood by him and demonized the women who he assaulted. And at first I thought… but what else could she do… and then I was thinking that it doesn’t matter about her personal life, it’s her policies.
And then I realized that I was a big goddamm hypocrite.
Still gonna vote for her, but I don’t like having to defend that decision because of what it means.
I found another version of it online at another Keto site.
Due to lack of some ingredients and ideas to make it better, here’s what I just made:
16oz Heavy Whipping Cream
160z Sour Cream
2 1/2 Tablespoons Dark Cocoa Powder
1 1/2 Packets of Stevia (1 pkt equivalent to 2 tsps sugar
1/2 cup of peacans
1 tsp cinnamon
1 Tablespoon of melted Coconut Oil
Basically I just blended everything together, and threw the nuts and the coconut oil in at the end. I tasted it at that point to make sure I had the right balance of sweetness – and I liked where it ended up.
It’s sitting in the freezer right now, while I’m waiting for my keto pizza to cook!
I engage in self-deprecating humor. I like to put people at ease by making fun of myself… But I’m not sure exactly how well it works. It seemed to work well when I lived outside the US, but for some reason, I keep finding myself involved with people here who take advantage of me. I’m fine putting myself down, but when someone else feeds off that, and then joins it, that just not cool.
Anyway, so I think I need a different approach. I’m still not entirely sure how to pull it off, but one of the things I want to work on this year is forming relationships with other people.
My uncle shared this on Facebook a couple of months ago, and I finally watched it this morning.